My life has been crazy busy lately, and in this case, that’s a good thing. They are not deadlines imposed on me by others, or commitments I’ve agreed to but resented. Nor are they idealized standards I’m trying to live up to. And so, this current busyness is peaceful and well-paced and joyous.
I wouldn’t have believed that possible not so long ago. One mantra I now try to live by is to act as if I have all the time I need, instead of the one that used to hammer in my head “too much, too much, too much!” My other new focus is gratitude. Realizing how grateful I am for this moment, why would I squander it by fretting about the next? Humility is the third. I used to actually believe that only I could do something well, that only I was truly dependable and that, imagine this, if I didn’t do it – well and dependably – it wouldn’t get done. What arrogance! What distrust! What narcissism! Yeah I got pretty sick of myself, too.
Now, I don’t worry about outcomes. I listen to your ideas and suggestions. I wait for the right moment to begin rather than forcing it. If I need to rest first, I rest. God holds every moment in all of time, and if I trust God then I can trust God’s timing and pace. The hare’s speedy race was very much about ego, but the tortoise’s steady journey was about trust.
This is such a better way!